Thursday, December 24, 2009

Time

I swear year after year it seems like the time just moves faster and faster. 
Could it be because I'm getting older? It's not because I'm having all this fun that's for sure.

I mean from week to week the days seem to run together. Me being a hairstylist my weekend begins when I get off on Saturday and I blink and it seems like Saturday again. I kinda feel like I'm in this weird trance and if I'm not careful I'm going to miss out.


You know the tricky thing about time is you can fool yourself into thinking you have more but in actuality its the one thing no amount of money can buy you more of. 
I even make these silly promises to myself that I'm going to do more the next weekend, of course the next weekend has come and gone. My last blog was all about an optimistic journey to a brand new day. I really want that to be the case. Really....


I feel optimistic yet anxious at the same time. I know that God willing one day I'll look up and my kids will be grown and I'll be older and more time will have came and gone. I just hope and pray I will have accomplished some things I had hope to accomplished.


The only problem is how do the successful people stay focused? I certainly have ADD or so it feels. lol I wanna lose weight, go out more, paint daily, network more, travel more, have a gallery showing, fall in love again, take my kids on a really nice vacation and just live out loud instead of from the side lines. 


Today I realized that tomorrow is Christmas and since funds have been very tight I kinda haven't been all that excited about it. I'm just being honest.....but what I have been looking forward too is the time off. Then there's the new year lol... as if miraculously all of my issues would disappear.


I'm looking forward to this change but scared that I won't follow through or be consistent. 


Agghhhhh crap to heck with all this mumbo jumbo about nothing blah blah blah!





I hope you guys have a wonderful Christmas and a Happy New Year!

From me, my daughter (who looks like my twin) and my son.

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

A BRAND NEW DAY is here right now...

These days it seems like time is moving at warp speed. I sit and try to figure out when did time started flying this way. I often wonder is it because at this current moment in my life I feel like I have to hurry up and accomplish the things I want. 


Some people say as long as we are living we are going to constantly want more out of life. I somewhat agree with that. Some would say to always want more sounds as though you aren't ever going to be satisfied. I disagree I think its healthy to never stop settings new goals. Even if your goal is to just remain free of the stresses of the daily grind you found yourself in prior to retirement. (As I'm thinking of someone in particular.)  However I think getting to a certain place of satisfaction, where you can sit back and relax sort of speak depends entirely on the individual. After all there are business Moguls out there who are in their late 70's early 80's still buying up companies and wheeling and dealing.
Are they never satisfied???


I'm definitely in search of my own satisfaction. I know I have a dream of being a working self sustaining full time artist. I know that in a few weeks the end of the year will be here. 2010 has to be a year of fearlessness. Having no fear or self doubt even when the nay sayers will try and dump their garbage on your lawn. 2010 has to be about dreaming bigger and crazier than ever and then going for it with all your heart, soul, blood, sweat and tears. 


If people aren't saying how crazy or insane your dreams sound then you aren't dreaming big enough!


In this photo is the word "WISH" and around it is my paint stuff, a picture of my kids when they were little and basically my work space in disorder.
As I examined they photo further I realized it reflects my life. The big wish is what I wish my life was or how I'm constantly wishing to turn back time. Wishing things had stayed the same blah blah blah. The layers of paint on my make shift palette represent the layers of bad habits and bad ways of thinking and mistakes of my past. The paint tubes represent the ideas yet tried...the new possibilities and experiences yet to unfold. The picture of my children represents me always living in the past being so caught up in the if only or missing out on some of the most important moments in my life. The troll doll and pony represent the want and need to still cling to the happier sillier things in life. And last but not least the cluttered workspace represents the chaos surrounding me. The negative self loathing I inflict on myself on a day to day basis and the fact that I do feel like time is of the essence. The fact that I can't stay focused and the crazy mood swings. The mess I have made because of my choices. 


In this photo is the sunrise or dawn of a new day. A day to relish the small things in the here and now, and to look towards the future. The person has their arms raised and spread out as though they are embracing this fearlessness of change and all that it has too offer. 
After all the great Charlie Chapman said "Nothing is permanent is this world... not even our troubles"



So 2010 is the beginning of not only a new year but a new decade. The start of a brand new day is here starting now this very next second or minute. Hell every next second, minute, hour, day, week, and year that we are still here alive and breathing it's never to late to Dream and run as if your life depended on it towards those dreams.


The Thrill of Life Isn't In How You Land, But In How You Fly!!!!
    



Monday, December 14, 2009

2010 Calendar is finally here!

   

Beautiful, happy, whimsical, colorful!
Happy doodling series
12 8.5x11 magazine finished sheets.
I'm so excited! I just can't hide it! So I'm telling everyone about it! Also stay tuned for my postcards too. Whew this was a big project and not having all the exact software made it tough.
I sure can't wait to start shipping these puppies out. Sooo support the arts and buy handmade. Not to mention you get to enjoy the new year with an affordable collection of RichAnt art. Also 25% 0f each sale goes towards www.feedthechildren.org






Friday, December 4, 2009

I finally started a new series...



Okay so like a few blogs ago I was ranting about how "I" am the one stopping me from having whatever my heart desires. Especially little things like a series of avant garde' hair/ make-up fashion editorial paintings. Well I finally got around to braving myself to do something a little more complicated than whimsy trees. The first in the series is a deep brown African American girl with dramatic yet artfully done make-up. She is painted on collaged editorial ripped pieces of paper.

How many do I planned to do who knows at this moment. Are they all going to be black mmm no not all of them however there will be several in different shades of color. So whom ever you can identify with...you can certainly claim them to be you. (did you understand that<<<<<???)


I took the first one to work with me in hopes it would inspire some or one of my colleges to purchase one or request one since after all they are Hairstylist. They loved it and of course gave many opinions on what I can do differently on the next one. Some said the background should have been a bit shaded some say she should have been more transparent as to see the editorials. Hmmm I'm learning and experimenting as I go. Each one will definitely be uniquely different from the others. Each one hopefully gettting more and more fascinating than before. 
I did a time-lapsed speed painting on this painting as well. I'm not sure if I'm going to do all of them that way because the process is so tidious and then on top of all the editing that goes along with it, ughhh.


I haven't named her yet. So many things come to my mind when looking at her. Like "Shake  it senorita with the flower in her hair". I remember that was a little song us girls sang as kids, sort of like "ring around the roses" but different. Then I thought about "Black Coffee" you know without the cream. I don't know.... still thinking but "Black Coffee" is a strong contender. 


Tell me what you think of her honestly... and what do you think a good title for her should be????



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