Today wasn't a good day. I woke up very melancholy. I really wanted to sleep in but I had to go to work. I finished my clients and went to the gym and did 30 minutes instead of my usual hour. All day I kept finding myself dwelling on whether or not he missed me or wanted to call me. I found myself wondering if any of it was genuinely real. I couldn't focus on my work out plus I was so tired from working. I went to the relaxation room and got a hydro massage and while I was enjoying that I prayed. Then my Father gave me peace.
I didn't call him or text him, I didn't run to food, but I did come home cry and watch an awesome message about in the meantime by Andy Stanley until I fell asleep.
Although I miss my friends and posting my art. I feel so much more clear headed. So much is going on in the news that will have you either distracted or finding yourself feeling angry. It does feel good to unplug but it also makes me realize its a false sense of connection. As much as I enjoy some time alone I can't stay that way for too long so thankfully work, church, and my kids have been keeping me moving. Surprisingly I have't been as prolific with my art. I pray that changes in this journey.
Anyway today's mood surprised me I really thought I was over the crying about him but apparently not. Can't wait to see what the next 7 days brings about.
Today's word is from Philippians 4:4-9