I think I've lost it again I had two events this Saturday and then the regular Sunday at Liv with BlackAlleyband but I have no juice in me. I'm stressed because monthly expenses are piling up and I have no idea of what to create nor do I have the energy. Nor the desire to go down to my space to try to muster up the inspiration. I think the space itself is taking a toll on me. I create all these awesome paintings when I paint live but why can't I reproduce that here at home as of late. Not to mention I haven't done youtube in ages. I spend a lot of time surfing the internet. I remember a time in my life when I didn't turn my computer on for days maybe even weeks. And it wasn't because it didn't work either.
Now I'm a social media whore.
Virtually fulfilling my voyeuristic tendencies. Watching others live out their dreams or not.
I mean don't get me wrong I have been busy this summer but I know what it really takes to make this dream of mine happen and I really need to step my game up major big time. I need to just unplug and refresh and then just create. If lack of money weren't an issue for me right now...I'd take a break from live painting and hair jump in the car with my art supplies and a few comfy but cute paint clothes and find somewhere to woosah.
It would be cool if there was a Mr.Miyagi of the art world who could take me in as his little grasshopper lol.I have the hardest time staying focused. I'm pretty positive everything will work out fine this weekend but I am a bit anxious.
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